What If...

What if is something which i feel very often, life cannot be stuck in a 'what if ' or a 'may be'. The life is a viscous circle which we are looped into and have not got control over, but we have options where in we can either crib about yesterday or carry on with our today with a smile and make a beautiful and happy tomorrow. But, what is fun of life if one cannot live and cherish his/her if,buts,and maybes.

I sometimes think what if things were different would I be the individual that, I am today. Maybe not ?

I sometimes think if this had worked out how would it had been. What if i had said things at the right time what could be my life. The only thing in my maybe section have been the situations which i didn't own up and say things to people which i should and could have said. But and a But I didn't and when I did they were irrelevant as people forget easily but they don't forgive so easily. I always thought i was a out spoken person in my life but the times where i should had spoken i didn't and here I'm not regretful but not revel about the same. I said the things, I wanted to but it was too late or irrelevant but on the flip side, I justify myself and condole my heart by telling it that it could have always been this but i just being an optimist didn't see it and saw the flowers in the yard not the thorns below the flowers, These thorns were painful to say the least. I think i would never get the clarity of how things were back then and how they could had been if worked out, but the only thing that i tell myself is it was the time which was wrong because i truly believe that people are not wrong time is. Some other time other place things could had worked out, and at the end of the day they weren't meant to be. You never know, but I literally stopped typing as i don't know what will happen tomorrow and that is the fun of life. I come back to and fall back on is that it was gods plan.